My mom sent me this verse in Isaiah 41:13. I like how this version says it. “I, your God, have a firm grip on you and I’m not letting go. I’m telling you, ‘Don’t panic I’m right here to help you.”‘
I feel like I am walking around today on egg shells waiting for the bad to come. I know God has a hold on me but the not knowing how my body is going to react and when to the chemo is unsettling. (I know, just another example of God is in control, not me).
I wrote yesterday at 4 that I was queasy and tired. At 6pm I did throw up and continued to feel sick. I didn’t throw up anymore though and was able to sleep through the night (except up at 4 to go to the bathroom–sorry if this is too much detail :)) Today I am up and around feeling a little bit nauseous but able to function.
Karsten (our 17 year old) got home from Spain with his Spanish class late Monday night. He is my chaufer today to take me back to the oncologist for my Nuelesta shot. I will get this the day after every chemo. It is to help keep my white blood counts up. It can cause bad joint and muscle pains. So pray that I don’t experience more pain–although my body seems to live in a state of constant pain lately. Also the big prayer concern is that my white blood count stays up so I can stay on my regular schedule for treatments.
More later….
Praying continually for you, Neal and the kids. We’re ALL praying.